Restless

I don't know why but I am very restless today.  But I've been restless for at least a year.  Life threw some things my way that I wasn't ready for.  I almost feel like I can't catch my breath.  I can't focus and my mind goes everywhere.  I'm ADD so that is not unusual.  But it has seemed more than normal.  We have lived back in Birmingham for almost 11 years.  We hardly stayed anywhere for more than 3 years for most of our marriage.  Not sure what is going on.  I felt a need to leave my position at our church serving on our Online Dream Team to go to the Woodlawn campus.  I begin there next Sunday.  As of today, I have 388 days until I'm done with Highlands College and 599 days until I'm hopefully done with my D.Min from Luther Rice. 

The grader for one of the classes really liked my 22-page paper the other day and said that I should consider doing a Ph.D.  I don't know if I can take another 3-4 years of college.  I can't believe I've been able to handle the load I've been taking.   I must be crazy.  I wonder if I will be stuck in the restless wilderness for years. 

Adjusting

Malachi 3:6 says:

I the Lord do not change

Since God does not change, it is up to me to change.  I must adjust to His ways and His plans.  I have things so planned out in my mind.  But how often have I really asked God what He wants?  God did tell me to go back to school.   That I'm sure of.  It would be easier not to be writing forums and papers and spending weeks in Atlanta and Tuesday nights at Grandview.  The changing needs to come from me.